I believe in BIG love because I’ve felt it.
The all-consuming kind of love that makes you think “My God, I didn’t know I could feel this way about anyone or anything” that seems to reverberate across time and space.
It’s a love so strong that it consumes, sustains, and breaks you all that the same time. It completely changes the very make-up of who you ever thought you were as a person. It erupts in flames that never seem to die into embers.
But the sad truth is that you don’t always end up with the person who sets your soul on fire and brings you incomparable happiness and love.
You don’t always end up with your soulmate.
We don’t always get to hold onto this person, because contrary to what fairy tales have told us since we are little girls, love does not conquer all.
Sometimes this person is just meant to be in your life for a short time to teach you lessons you wouldn’t learn about life and love otherwise.
Sometimes childishness and selfishness and life get in the way.
Sometimes they hurt you so badly there’s just no way to rebuild what you had.
Sometimes it becomes toxic and unhealthy.
Sometimes you realize that an all-consuming type of love is disastrous for you both and holding you back.
Losing this person and giving them up is the most soul-wrenching thing you will ever go through.
It’s accepting that the connection you had will never die, and feeling like a piece of you is always missing.
It’s knowing your lives will have to run parallel for the rest of your lives because seeing each other is too painful.
It’s knowing deep down that you will never love another person this way or deeply ever again.
It’s coming to terms with the fact that even though you did not get to end up with this person, you were damn lucky to have gotten to meet and love your soulmate because some people go through life never getting that chance.
One day someone will come along who may not set your soul on fire and encompass you whole, but they are quietly everything you didn’t know you needed. This person won’t make you cry or break you into a tiny million pieces. This person will quiet your being when you didn’t know it needed to be still.
This new person will choose to love you, will mean forever, and will mend you to show you that by letting go of your soul mate, you paved the way for true love.